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firstly.
SCREW THIS DAMNED LEG OF MINE.
YOU WERE FINE DURING PE.
WHY DID YOU HAVE TO SCREW UP ON ME NOW.
BIKE HIKE. THE FREAKING CHANCE OF A LIFETIME.
WITH MY TEAM.
AND YOU JUST TOTALLY PICK THE NIGHT BEFORE IT
TO START RELEASING PAIN BULLETS
THUS SCARING MOMMY OUT OF HER SKIN
and now i cant freaking go for bike hike.
screw you. DAMN IT, SCREW YOU.

secondly.
i always find it easier to be this introspective person when the sky darkens.
it's not that i never realised how much i miss stnicks until today.
i always knew. i still know.
it's just that it never hit me as hard as it did today.
when i collected my cert.
and i looked through the stuff in it.
the testimonial that i wrote myself (to my utmost disgust and horror).
the results, the string of letters that got me where i am now.
the cca record, those few words simply unable to sum up what i, for want of a better word, devoted myself to for four years, no matter how much i wanted to kill and cause bloodshed, no matter how much i felt like giving up, no matter how much the world seemed to be against me (and the other five of us.)

going back to the sj room and pressing my nose to the window, trying to peer through the glass to the darkened interior of the room and read the message on the whiteboard left by my juniors (i couldnt read the message because of the darned reflection).

walking to the pink (le gasp! pink!) corridor on the third floor where 4 Truth spent the most wonderful year ever, screaming about Os and the mysterious vegetable-in-the-iced-tea-without-ice and generally nothing in particular.

walking through the (generally) empty school, looking around at everything.
if i'll be honest, the school was pretty dead. there was nobody. there was meet-the-parents.
but i didn't go through all that trouble at 3-something pm for nothing.
because strangely enough, it wasn't all that hard to imagine stnicks alive, the way i always knew it, bustling with activity.
i saw the green patch and imagined for a moment, the first and last parades every friday, with so many 1.5l bottles which were never neatly lined up. i daresay never.
saw the flagpole and imagined people getting tekan-ed in front of it. (im not sadistic.)
saw the current 2 Charity classroom (it used to be mine! 2 Grace!) and imagined sec1s learning CPR inside.
oh God i miss the school.

even macs, for goodness sake, that lovely red-and-yellow fast food restaurant we all take for granted, could have so much to hold.

the same lady who pissed tomoe off every friday evening, is still there.
to piss her off. again.

there are still guys with laptops, bringing to mind the endless replaying of "inside your heaven" by carrie underwood, so much so that i was annoyed by the song to no end by about five replays.

the song choice of macs is still terrible... bringing to mind tomoe's idea that the english name of 张信哲 is *insert weird accent* zhangxinzhe~~~
goodness, tomoe can't even remember that incident well.
she thinks it was 刘德华.
me: 是张信哲！刘德华跟张信哲差很远leh...
tomoe: 哎呀，他们都是香港人...
me: 张信哲是台湾人...
tomoe: ...都是华人！
me: might as well say 都是男人...

as tomoe says, it even sounds like they have christmas songs and 杀猪 songs. -_-

then, i met myra and zhuwei at amk hub.
some things just dont change ^^
for instance, stealing zhuwei's rubber band and threatening her with ridiculous things such as...
"you'll only get your rubber band back if you can help myra successfully log in to her facebook account on your phone."
or
"you'll only get your rubber band back if abigail comes by 7.15. if she doesnt, your rubber band goes in the water."
another thing that doesnt change is watching zhuwei stand up and completely pwn the guys nearby in terms of height ^^;
another thing that doesnt change is abigail being extremely unapologetically LATE.

so anyway.
we spent a ridiculously long time deciding where to go to eat, lmao.
pepper lunch? mos burger? subway? pizza hut?
and along the way, we saw jiafeng xD
i recognised the class tee before i saw her.
it just seemed to jump out at me, like how the fish on the tee is jumping out of its too-small bowl.
anyway, we settled on pizza hut.
until we realised that we will actually be waiting for 10 to 15 mins, and then decided to go eat at kfc instead -_-

four of us in four different uniforms.
hci, rjc (sorry lah i dont wanna call it ri(jc) leh), njc, ajc.
we should totally have taken pics pls.
but the same sentiments everywhere:
i miss stnicks.

and then there is the going home part.
more memories again.
i will not apologise for anyone who read until here and is completely unable to understand what im feeling, because i reserve the right to be nostalgic.
how long has it been since myra, zhuwei and i stood in the train, surrounded by masses of people, not caring about the strange looks cast by others as myra and i attempted to convince zhuwei to (this phrase is gonna give her nightmares) repeat after us: EMBRACE MY HEIGHT!
hence the proposal of friday being the lets-heck-everybody-and-go-home-together day.
it must happen. i dont care.

and so began the long walk home from admiralty mrt station, partly because i somehow felt that waiting at the bus stop seemed a pretty pathetic thing to do today.
a pretty nice feeling to be shrouded in shadows by the (overgrown) plants by the roadside.
(i mean, seriously, what were they thinking by planting all that stuff?)
in any case, there's just one conclusion:
there's no place like stnicks.

and all of a sudden i felt like doing it all over again.
wearing a blue pinafore which has a belt never the right height nor the right size.
with that sewn-on 德纯义坚 school badge which screams PRIMARY SCHOOL because goodness, teenagers do actually remember to pin stuff onto their uniforms okay.
with that bright yellow nametag that i initially hated so much because it screamed BANANA, but now i love it because it reminds me that im from the yellow badge.
and that same nametag which has my chinese name written proudly above my english name.
ironically, nobody paid much attention to it until jc, when i dont wear my nametag anymore, but people still enjoy calling me "XIU xian!"
specially for today, i wore the SNG socks again.
although this time i didnt actually care if you could see the SNG or not.
despite the smug smirks i would allow myself whenever councillors stopped in front of abigail or myra to tell them to pull up their socks, completely skipping me-who-also-has-unsatisfactory-socks.
because really, in this environment, do you really need to tell everybody you're a stnicks girl?
it's enough to be a stnicks girl at heart.
and i will always be one, even if people tell me i have the face of a schoolgirl from just across the road.

Once A St Nicks Girl, Always A St Nicks Girl.

i cant believe that throughout that whole lengthy reminiscence, i didnt mention Mrs Goh.
i miss her >< and all her quotable quotes.
i will quote only the one that always sticks in my memory. always.

When St Nicks is at its best, NOBODY comes close.

i fail in blogging when emo, seriously.
i actually had this entire chunk of words typed out.
then i decided it doesnt make sense.
and highlighted the whole thing.
and pressed backspace.

the last week of school is almost over :)
though something tells me i'm not going to enjoy my june holidays at all.
but there are things to look forward to :)

and i have no idea how i am going to last through bike hike when i can't even run for the bus or dash for food in the canteen to beat the queues.

하루 종일 장난치듯 날 밀고 당기고 무너져도.

._.
two more days only.
can one lah.

as usual, Kim Jonghyun's a heartbreaker.
this time, he's really done it.
his taste in girls has changed...
from "long black hair, white skin and red lips" (女鬼) in Replay days...
to "Olivia Hussey" when SHINee comes back with Juliette.

i really dont wanna be mean,
but i would've somewhat approved of his taste in girls if she were still juliet in the 1968 film version of popular shakespeare play romeo and juliet.
but now... umm, you can just google 'olivia hussey' if you're interested.
Kim Jonghyun, come back to the present. *pulls*
i'd rather you marry a female ghost instead.
or, in all honesty, i'd much rather you marry your american noona from yunhanam.
have you forgotten about her? :(

*

so anyway.
today was bio lesson.
i was freaking almost late ><
okay, i was actually late lah, but they hadnt started when i came in.
the first thing that struck me was the smell of food. LOL.

lol at the wonders that a reflection off a surface can do.
kaeyuan's totally sick lah. liddat also can notice. -_-
lesson learnt: whn sitting in front of a tablet pc, NEVER wear anything with a V neckline.
as quoted from joanne: "KAEYUAN! how can you think of your seonsaengnim like that!"
okay, granted, she didnt say seonsaengnim (i would personally be floored if she did)
but you never know who's reading. D:

and then sarah was super epic today.

mrs sim: "telomerase activity is only present in germ cells, stem cells and absent in somatic cells. somatic cells are cells other than your sex cells..."

sarah: "does that mean germs live forever?"

mrs sim: "NOOOOOOOOOOOO *epic outburst* germ cells are cells that give rise to your gametes! you mean that you think a stem cell is a cell in the stem of a plant?"

sarah: "HUH really? are you joking?"

mrs sim: "OF COURSE IM JOKINGGGGG"

weiqi: "可以继续吗..."

*

dance "night" was effing nice 8DDDDDDDD
i really wanna go back again lah haha.
i got abit overexcited for nothing due to the many familiar song titles present in one particular writeup.
i cant say i was disappointed though, cos the dance was still nice.
despite the fact that the song i was really looking forward to most was missing.
if possible, i really want a replay.

*

네가 있는게 꿈이었단 걸
내 눈가에 고여진 눈물이 말해줬어

안돼요 안돼요 그렇게 가지마요
제발 한 번만 한 번만 날 다시 안아줘요
다시 눈감아 널 보러가면
그 자리에 멈춘 나를 안아줘요

*

아무 말도 안 해도, 이미 모두 알고 있는 걸
so true, so true.
it's not your words that speak volumes, nor your actions.
it's your silence, and what you say with your eyes.
because i'm past wondering if it's my problem.
because i'm past caring.
woot woot, yay me :)

* //edit: sunday, 24 may 2009

well excuuuuuuuuse me.
there's a limit to how much crap i can take over msn lor.
probably arbitrarily higher than what i can take face-to-face, but a limit nonetheless.

i dont mind helping you to the best of my abilities if you didnt listen and missed out on the details.
i honestly dont mind. its okay, it happens, it happens to me too.
but what i cant stand is when smth like this happens.

tmr what are we doing for bio and pw ah.
pw im nt sure, bio we're doing cell division overview and mcq.
for two hours.
idk, thats what she said yesterday?
no prac issit.
er i dont think so.
*offline*

if you'd allow me to complete your sentence: THANKS?
im. not. a. freaking. INFORMATION CENTRE.
decent people usually thank the people at the information centre, even if it didnt exactly give them the information they wanted.
its called basic courtesy.
whatever lah kthxbai.

i shall now go and blast juliette on endless repeat to take my mind off things.
TCHHH.
drown myself in the healing qualities i've come to associate with their voices and the thought of them.
영혼을 바칠께요.

another week flown by lol.
everything i get back is flunked like shit.
by flunked like shit i mean really like shit.
and not like "like shit but actually its okay de lor"

whatever, HURR.

i need my life, my oxygen back.

hurr whatever manxz.
even my korean's starting to suck more and more.
-_- RAWRR.
i mean, okay, it wasnt even that good to begin with ._.
but its getting worse?
hurr suck.

okkkk.
so because i dont like being sad / emo for too long...

SHINee's Juliette MV was released today 8D
yinyee's response was... kind of amusing.


yinyee (: 너 라 고 says:
omg taemin
omg their outfits
omg their choreography!
OMG MINHO

louisa// Juliette! 잠꼬대~~~ says:
i know im a lit student
but im finding it hard
to interpret
what your omgs mean

...


yinyee (: 너 라 고 says:
and omg minho during his rap
louisa// Juliette! 잠꼬대~~~ says:
-_-

this is called not listening.
so what she basically meant was
omg taemin doesnt look 15.
omg their outfits are damn colourful.
omg their choreography is nice.
omg minho during his rap is *O*

달콤히, 좀 더 달콤하게
사랑의 세레나데~

right
its 10.25pm now~
gotta go airport le!
WAHAHA.
*poof*

HAHA omg the world's too effing small xDDDDDD

a short summary of the msn convo between me and jesmine (whom i havent seen in ages, goodness i miss my stnicks friends).
a certain amount of detail has been concealed, but the gist is there nonetheless.
if you're smart enough you'll figure it out ^^

D: says:
okay if he is from [primary school]
i will puke out all my pineapple i ate
as in primary school
issit yeah i think so

louisa// oh, juliet, deal with it! says:
lol i have no idea
OMG FREAK
HE KNOWS [my sec2 classmate]

D: says:
HHAHAHAH I THINK MY SEC 1 CLASSMATE EYECANDIED SOMEONE CALLED [name] IN [some] CLASS BEFORE
hahaahahahaha
and he was from [CCA]

louisa// oh, juliet, deal with it! says:
OMG
it has to be him haha

(a while later...)

louisa// oh, juliet, deal with it! says:
[link] <- lol show your sec1 classmate this link and ask if he's the one

D: says:
okay the picture just made me laughed like siao
AHAHAH YOU KNOW WHAT, IT IS HIM
hahaahaha
i recognise, kinda
4 years ago
cos i was staring at him very intently to see which part of him is good-looking

louisa// oh, juliet, deal with it! says:
HAHAHAHHA OMG
HAHAHAHAHAHAA SHIT LAH
THE WORLD IS TOO SMALL MANXZ

*end*

haha im srsly dammit amused lah
im also extremely sleepy
its 12.20 and i havent mugged for math lecture test
gg-fied muchly.
see how much i can chiong tmr lor.
sighz. ><

louisa needs to stop playing with guns before she shoots, not only her mouth, but her whole head clean off her neck.


did a bit of thinking on the bus home today.
its a long and rainy day, and it was one heck of a wait at the bus stop -_-


better watch our backs a little more from now on.
better be careful.
better not be so naive to take everything at face value.


recently super addicted to sisqo's incomplete.
all right, actually its jonghyun's version of the song -_-
but hey, its only his diction that's fail, right? xD


after thinking for so long, i still havent come up with a decent conclusion for myself.
says alot about how well my brain works, eh.
in any case...
shall we say that i am mildly disillusioned, yes.
okay.
mildly is an understatement.


im addicted to nothing better by brown eyed soul too.


이제 꿈처럼 내 맘은 그대곁에 가만히 멈춰서요
한순간도 깨지 않은 끝없는 꿈을 꿔요
이제 숨처럼 내곁에 항상쉬며
그렇게 있어주면
nothing better, nothing better than you


now, like a dream, my heart stops silently beside you
without awaking even for a moment, i dream an endless dream
and now, like breathing, if you were to always rest by my side
if it were to remain this way
nothing better, nothing better than you


cr. girlwithsmalleyes @ SHINee Forums / weiqi and xiang for helping ^^;

so im here to whine about my "life's savings" being bled dry.
T_T
im srsly damn depressed lah.
and im like starving now.
cant eat yet cos mum not home .___.

my life's savingssssss.
my shinee mini albummmmmmm.
my... foooooooooooood.
rawrr omg this sucks.
i need to keep my piggy bank under lock and key D:
so that i never EVER take out my savings until stuff like shinee albums come along.
seriously ._.

misogyny is your terminal disease.
cant be helped, too bad, dont care.
^_^;;

happy may day!
birthday's coming soon.
SHINee's comeback coming soon.
8D

dont really feel like blogging about poop.
it was a nice show, definitely a great one.
but theres alot of memories that it brought back ><
that i dont really want to relive at 12.10 am whn i have a bio lecture in the morning tmr -_-

so with that,
i shall go sleep.