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Monday, June 30, 2008

i'm going to be rather screwed for the tests tmr. zzz.
but i don't care, because today is such an interesting day.

zhuwei, ms 178cm-with-extremely-long-legs, finally found a bus (the new 265 one) that can allow her to sit properly without having to face outwards!
hard to explain, but congrats zhuwei anyway ((:
buses are considerate for you after all :D

i was plagued with many small but infuriating ailments from the minute i stepped into school.
i started having migraines.
i started having stomachaches that i didn't know whether they were cramps or gastric.
i started hiccuping nonstop (and very violently) so much so that i nearly started puking.
not forgetting the all-important unable-to-ignore-what-i'm-supposed-to-be-ignoring disease.
but that one's going to heal very quickly. pinky promise (:

math was just WEIRD because i cant do modulus to save my life.
english was blah because i got back the stupid environmental summary crap.
recess was HURR because i saw the juniors photocopying suspicious-looking stuff. heh.
chinese is :/ because i need 13/20 for my ying yong wen to get an A for chinese. idiot huang jin jia.
geog was stoning session because nothing really productive was happening.
chem was OHNO because i realised i havent started studying for the revision test yet. and blimey, there's alkanes, alkenes and all the other sec3 stuff. AND i have geog/lit/math tmr and amath on wed. AND I HAVENT STUDIED FOR ANYTHING. that's why i'm screwed, see?

but, well, i'm wasting my time fiddling with itunes here now.
it was worth coming online though.
much thanks to yinyee for compiling the rising sun personal concert!
i don't know if i've mentioned the ultimate rising sun parody before.
but trella, brenda and clarissa recently became dbsk-c for dbsk-clowns, value-added in entertainment value.
not quite knowing how to name the file when i loaded it into my ipod, i thus put the "artist" as TBC. To Be Continued. See, how inventive of me =.=

and the sudden alarm sound of someone talking to me on msn just made me inhale my vegetables down my throat.
see, kiddos, this is why you should NEVER multitask when you eat.




Sunday, June 29, 2008

ok i deleted this whole post and re-edited it because it was going too crazy.
i shall save my self-reflectiveness for private conversations, bwahaha.

i am suddenly looking forward to pop.
there's a prediction that i'll die of laughter.
i think i'm more likely to freeze to death from lengdiao-ness.
oh no, there's suddenly a prediction that i will die from vomiting too much blood in the drama studio.
either way, 我是死路一条了 right.

"i rather you die of laughter. at least got entertainment value."
-stones-




Friday, June 27, 2008

hurr, now the only thing that's buzzing around in my mind is that stupid line from that akanishi jin song.
what "go club get drunk you stupid shit".
not the best line to float around in the mind, but well.
damn irritated now, too much noise pollution from earlier.

i think i'll be staying up late tonight.
zzz.




Monday, June 23, 2008

aiii, my head is spinning now.
ss is all kinds of madness.
im so dead hurr.
and i havent practiced integration.
and i have to wake up extra early tmr.
rawrr.

lalalalalalalala.
tests left, right and centre,
and extra lessons till abt 5pm.
PLUS THAT WEIRDO MASS JOG EVERYDAY.
siao pok la, all you're gna make me do is go home and sleep.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

aiiii, better go pack my full-u.
gahhh.




Friday, June 20, 2008

i wonder how many more secrets you can keep.
and how much time was left before i'd finally know what you were planning to do.
were you really intending to spill it?
or did you conveniently hope i'd bring it up so you could tell me matter-of-factly?
or maybe i wasn't supposed to know, huh.
i don't know anymore, and i don't bloody care.

contrary to what i've been trying to say for quite long now,
yes, im not a nice girl. fine, happy, done.
GRAHH.

you may label this as angst, PMS or anything or whatever.
IDK, IDC.




Monday, June 16, 2008

i love my handphone wallpaper pls.
the words are readable, and they speak volumes.

giving up was never an option.
it was always a very strong desire, but one that was rather hard to satisfy.
at least there are people who understand.
and i thank them for trying to help, but, let's face it.
it didn't help, and i don't think it ever will.
sorry for being so pessimistic ehhs.

i was going to say that i feel like i'm living in denial,
trying to ignore what's going on around me and trying to do my own things properly.
but i don't think that's denial after all.
i think what i've done, what we've all done, is finally given up.
anyway, the end is in sight.
no point doggedly hanging on to something that's not going to change.
it can't get any better, so i just hope it can't get any worse either.

gosh i hope i dont sound emo after all this.
maybe i sound comical.
maybe i'll go and have a good laugh at all the drama.
i shall learn to manipulate my own emotions,
and turn something that makes me want to die,
into something that i can laugh at.





you know all those times when you look back on something and you can always find something to be thankful for or be happy about?
where have they all gone?

i have just set a sleeping record of 17 hours.
but heyy, that makes up for the pathetic one hour i slept during camp.
during the entire 3 days 2 nights, i only slept one hour.
and i didnt even mean to.
it was NOT amusing.
having a bread picnic outside the SJ room is amusing.

잠시뿐인걸
아픔은 사라질 거야
sure hope so.
"my prayer" lyrics from BoA.
somehow, you can hear emotion.

okay, i have thought of a way to end this post for the past fifteen minutes.
it's 1am now and i still can't think of a nice way to end it.

i shall end it with a simple goodbye.




Tuesday, June 03, 2008

my comp is completely silent now :/
it crashed, but thankfully my files are all right (:
still need to connect to speakers and download chinese software though.
it'll be back on track very soon!

oh mann i wna borrow that boy next door book!
haha that was what hilary and i were reading instead of looking at hormones.
so much so that we even tried to read by hp light -.-

ohh yes after school!
majorly retarded.
we were at the bus stop whn we saw a single-deck 76 bus, closely followed by a CT8 bus and a double-deck 76 bus.
zhuwei and i wanted to take the double-deck bus, so we waited for the single-deck and the CT8 to drive off first.
lo and behold, the double-deck 76 bus drove away without us!
thn zhuwei suggested running after the double-deck bus, so we ran.
and didnt catch up with it.
thereafter we walked back to yck mrt in 26 minutes.
meanwhile the single-deck 76 bus that we missed had already gone back to the depot and was going out for a second round when we next saw it as we passed pres high -.-

hurr and then i came home and immersed myself in chem and math.
sianxzxzz manxzxz.

and i am damn bored now.
maybe i shall go play silent pinball.

P.S. im kind of tired of people asking me stupid questions -.-