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Saturday, April 11, 2009

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i look at the cut on my hand, and kind of wonder what its doing there.
its a pus-yellow colour, but the skin around it is pinkish. its still rather raw. its stinging and smarting.
basically, it hurts.

you dont see it when things are going good for you,
you see it only when everything starts crashing down.
there's more, underneath happy smiles and cheerful jokes and everything else.
there almost always is, and i dont think this is an exception.

what happened to school spirit.
what happened to hcunite.
what happened to the simple act of support through the final burst of a long, arduous journey to the top.
does it not apply to you?
is there no significance in it?
does it not concern your own little bubble of comfortable existence, just because you havent the slightest amount of attachment to anything else other than you and your little circle?

nicely done.

dont tell me to go home and watch it on tv, or to just read the blog, or to hear it from other people.
you dont know, do you.
i guess they didnt teach you what 姐妹同心 is like.
granted, this can hardly be counted as a case of 姐妹 but.
the spirit is there, you just dont feel it.

this is when i really miss stnicks like crazy.
where stnicks is concerned, i am 200% sure, or maybe even surer, that i wouldnt be in a situation where i have feelings like these.

or maybe,
its just you.
dont expect me to look at you in the same way again.
you just took my impression of you and shattered it completely.
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not looking forward to tomorrow.
but anyway.
good luck, hc water polo team :)