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louisa
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Monday, June 16, 2008

i love my handphone wallpaper pls.
the words are readable, and they speak volumes.

giving up was never an option.
it was always a very strong desire, but one that was rather hard to satisfy.
at least there are people who understand.
and i thank them for trying to help, but, let's face it.
it didn't help, and i don't think it ever will.
sorry for being so pessimistic ehhs.

i was going to say that i feel like i'm living in denial,
trying to ignore what's going on around me and trying to do my own things properly.
but i don't think that's denial after all.
i think what i've done, what we've all done, is finally given up.
anyway, the end is in sight.
no point doggedly hanging on to something that's not going to change.
it can't get any better, so i just hope it can't get any worse either.

gosh i hope i dont sound emo after all this.
maybe i sound comical.
maybe i'll go and have a good laugh at all the drama.
i shall learn to manipulate my own emotions,
and turn something that makes me want to die,
into something that i can laugh at.